Forget and Forgive....?!!
What does these words mean to you? Is it easy to do or contratry?
If we look at the bible about forget and forgive, it will show many verse in there: (Psalm, Phil, Matt, Luke, 1 Jn) but I am not good in biblical if I need some encourage verse I just find it in concordance and read that, that's all I can do. If I need to understand jus pray and ask God to help but explain it to everybody I believe it's a pastor job, don't you think?
Anyway, what I am going to say is I have hard time to forget and forgive especially when I get hurt so bad. My mom always say because I am selfish and just doing the self center point not listen to anybody. It made me more upset but because I love her so much then I just leave and not listen what she said (ooo..I think my mom is right-I am not listening). Hey...I am hurt here, nobody will understand how I am feeling-even my mom. Do you agree with me? The only thing I can think of to make that person listen to me. I can do something to make that person listen...watch me!
Otherwise, I get hurt many more times and it effected my mood. I can't work or sleep but still can eat because I love eating (ha ha ha I am bad huh?), can't do nothing! And I said to my self, it is not right. I prayed to God but instead of say thankful I scolded to Him and asked Him many "why-questions" like why you put me in this situation? why you this and this. Now I am feeling bad by doing that, forgive me LORD. Wait a minute now. Since I love reading about self improvement book which is plenty in this world, still none of them satisfy me or answer my wondering.
That word (forget and forgive) kept pounding on my head! What's going on here? What happened to me? God, don't you see I am suffering hereeee. I became bad and bad. Because in my sense if I am getting hurt how can I forget? and how can I forgive if it is really hurt me. NO WAY!!!
One day I read the old book title "wounded heart" I forget the publisher and the author. I will try to find later in the internet (if I remember doing the search, being this old...I am easily to forget about anything-many people said: Hi Evi, join the club (who wants to join that club anyway ... but it seems I have to because I have no choice..ha ha ha...))
The conclusion of that book is you don't have to struggle/against to forget and forgive because nobody can't. What you need is just put your feet on that person shoes but you need some time to understand and see why the people that make me hurt doing that to me.
I tell you what, I keep hard-necked and said I am different with them and what I am doing is the right way, and some people agree with my opinion except my mom :(
Finally, I mean finally I figured out what it is after some time I try to put my feet on their shoes (which is too big for me in real ha ha haha ha). Because of my selfishness I don't want to hear what that person try to say. I covered my ears and not listen but keep talking about my opinion to them. My mom is right I am too self-center, love myself too much. I don't want people in this world hurting me. What my mom suggestion is very simple, just listen what somebody opinion and compare with yours, if it is against yours discuss with them with no anger she believe it will clear the situation and I don't have to get hurt anymore.
As I want to live long in peaceful heart, I am going try to do that to my life. I don't want to fill my heart and mind with wounded-heart or anger which is it will make all the scary disease grows so fast on your body such as heart attack, stroke, high blood pressure or diabetes( if I am stress or angry I will eat something sweet without thinking and it means I eat a lot... I mean a lot).
Well.. I am still not sure that I can do it or not but I am going to try hard this good advice. What I am trying to do:
First, I want to put my feet on their shoes
Second, listen and learn what other person opinion
Third, pray to ask for God to manage my anger... (because I am not sure that I can handle by my own strength...like I said I am into my self :)
That is my sharing for today. I wish I have so much time in front of the computer so I can share many crazy thing in my life that probably will useful...who knows?
If we look at the bible about forget and forgive, it will show many verse in there: (Psalm, Phil, Matt, Luke, 1 Jn) but I am not good in biblical if I need some encourage verse I just find it in concordance and read that, that's all I can do. If I need to understand jus pray and ask God to help but explain it to everybody I believe it's a pastor job, don't you think?
Anyway, what I am going to say is I have hard time to forget and forgive especially when I get hurt so bad. My mom always say because I am selfish and just doing the self center point not listen to anybody. It made me more upset but because I love her so much then I just leave and not listen what she said (ooo..I think my mom is right-I am not listening). Hey...I am hurt here, nobody will understand how I am feeling-even my mom. Do you agree with me? The only thing I can think of to make that person listen to me. I can do something to make that person listen...watch me!
Did I happy about that?
Nope!
Otherwise, I get hurt many more times and it effected my mood. I can't work or sleep but still can eat because I love eating (ha ha ha I am bad huh?), can't do nothing! And I said to my self, it is not right. I prayed to God but instead of say thankful I scolded to Him and asked Him many "why-questions" like why you put me in this situation? why you this and this. Now I am feeling bad by doing that, forgive me LORD. Wait a minute now. Since I love reading about self improvement book which is plenty in this world, still none of them satisfy me or answer my wondering.
That word (forget and forgive) kept pounding on my head! What's going on here? What happened to me? God, don't you see I am suffering hereeee. I became bad and bad. Because in my sense if I am getting hurt how can I forget? and how can I forgive if it is really hurt me. NO WAY!!!
One day I read the old book title "wounded heart" I forget the publisher and the author. I will try to find later in the internet (if I remember doing the search, being this old...I am easily to forget about anything-many people said: Hi Evi, join the club (who wants to join that club anyway ... but it seems I have to because I have no choice..ha ha ha...))
The conclusion of that book is you don't have to struggle/against to forget and forgive because nobody can't. What you need is just put your feet on that person shoes but you need some time to understand and see why the people that make me hurt doing that to me.
I tell you what, I keep hard-necked and said I am different with them and what I am doing is the right way, and some people agree with my opinion except my mom :(
Finally, I mean finally I figured out what it is after some time I try to put my feet on their shoes (which is too big for me in real ha ha haha ha). Because of my selfishness I don't want to hear what that person try to say. I covered my ears and not listen but keep talking about my opinion to them. My mom is right I am too self-center, love myself too much. I don't want people in this world hurting me. What my mom suggestion is very simple, just listen what somebody opinion and compare with yours, if it is against yours discuss with them with no anger she believe it will clear the situation and I don't have to get hurt anymore.
As I want to live long in peaceful heart, I am going try to do that to my life. I don't want to fill my heart and mind with wounded-heart or anger which is it will make all the scary disease grows so fast on your body such as heart attack, stroke, high blood pressure or diabetes( if I am stress or angry I will eat something sweet without thinking and it means I eat a lot... I mean a lot).
Well.. I am still not sure that I can do it or not but I am going to try hard this good advice. What I am trying to do:
First, I want to put my feet on their shoes
Second, listen and learn what other person opinion
Third, pray to ask for God to manage my anger... (because I am not sure that I can handle by my own strength...like I said I am into my self :)
That is my sharing for today. I wish I have so much time in front of the computer so I can share many crazy thing in my life that probably will useful...who knows?
posted by Evi (read: e-phi) at
7:48 AM
1 Comments:
I aggree with your mom opinion.
Always try to see something from possitive point of view. It's really hard you know... and don't forget for injecting humour into life..
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